According to A Course In Miracles® this world was made as an attack on God; a place where we dreamed we could be something that we could never be; a special, separate and somehow different son of God.

Nevertheless we do seem to be here consistently choosing the world of form despite a knowing deep down that it is only a diversion and will never hold anything that I truly want. We continue to ask what's next or still in some, maybe subtle way, seek outside ourselves for a new partner, job, location or even a new pathway. It is important not to get down hearted about this but rather to forgive ourselves and recognise that everybody walking this earth (with so few exceptions they don't count) is doing exactly the same thing, in fact this is why we came here in the first place.

We are seeking our real Home

The wonderful explanation for this constant seeking is the compelling desire we have to return to our real 'home', but as this would mean the end of the ego, our ego's tell us we can find what we are looking for here in the world, so we embark on an endless search seeking for what can not be found here. We refuse to admit that our private world and the world at large seems to be shifting and changing all the time. Sometimes when we get what we think we want it seems to be better for a while then eve rything goes to pieces again and everything seems terrible.

The Course emphasises over and over again that our problem is specialness; that we are better, or worse, than everyone else, it doesn't really matter which, as long as we are different. We either want praise, applause, admiration or respect or condemnation and rejection but either way we want to be 'special'. Because our peace is so fragile we feel the need to defend our specialness 24 hours a day. Page 470 in the Text describes this attribute

"It is not you that is so vulnerable and open to attack that just a word, a little whisper that you do not like, a circumstance that suits you not, or an event that you did not anticipate upsets your world, and hurls it into chaos. Truth is not frail. Illusions leave it perfectly unmoved. But specialness is not the truth in you. It can be thrown off balance by anything. What rests on nothing never can be stable. However large and overblown it seems to be, it still must rock and turn and whirl about with every breeze."

Hugh Prather (pictured) made a statement in one of his talks some years ago "Why don't you strive to be ordinary" mainly to shake people out of their fixed belief that nothing is more 'sacred' than their individuality. It may not seem appropriate to describe a Son of God as ordinary, seemingly belittling His magnificence, but what Hugh was driving at, is that we can never realise our at-one- ment with everybody until we give up the idea that we are in some way unique thereby maintaining the separation.
Our sense of separation means we must protect our body as the symbol of that separation with our every breath In this world everything revolves around our body. We spend our waking hours concerning ourselves about its welfare. We ask "How does my body look ?, Is it hungry ? Is it cold? or hot ? Is it being satisfied sexually ? How long will that other body stay with mine ? Is it properly housed ? Does it hurt ? How long will it last ? Will the children look after it when I can't ? or do I have enough money to guarantee it's welfare when it grows old and feeble?."
Of course there are countless more anxieties we experience where the body is involved. Even what we think about others can be related to our concern about our bodies. And yet the highest praise the Course gives to the body is that is a wholly neutral thing. Elsewhere the body is referred to in less complementary terms such as "a little pile of dust and water" and "a mound of clay". Probably the best explanation of the body is given on page 415 of the workbook where it is described as a fence which the Son of God imagined he has built.
"It is within this fence he thinks he lives, to die as it decays and crumbles. For it is within this fence he thinks that he is safe from love " This very impermanence suits the ego's needs well and gives us a valid reason for attacking God. How we ask, could God have created such an inferior product with a limited guarantee. The Course asks us on page 447 "Do you want freedom of the body, or of the mind? For both you cannot have". How can a fence give you freedom ? It was designed to confine a spirit which could never be contained.
The way the ego set it up the body's end is certain. How then, as immortal Sons of God can we continue to be happy when we identify ourselves as bodies. Obviously we cannot forever, as sooner or later sickness, accident, aging or just a twist of fate will adversely affect this vehicle we think is us.
Thank God we all know at some level that we are not limited by these bodies and this insane world is not our real home. The Course reminds us:

"It must be so that either God is mad, or is this world a place of madness. Not one Thought of His makes any sense at all within this world." Text page 494.

And yet we love to analyse this insanity and try to make logical sense of it, believing that in some way we will succeed in manipulating the illusion more to our liking. Taking truth to the illusion always has the same result. We can only be happy taking the illusion to truth by asking Holy Spirit to reinterpret the situation for us. The mind's ability to reason must eventually lead to the ego's undoing because of the inconsistent, constantly changing nature of the body and the world of form.
Sooner or later we have to grow up and learn how to walk this world doing the things of this world not hating it, nor opposing it in any way, but knowing all the time of our reality as equal, but not special, Sons of a totally loving Father. What point is there in attacking an illusion anyway? We would then be unaffected by all the seeming dramas going on around us totally aware that they mean nothing and become like a rock in a seeming storm and a comfort to all we come in contact with.